In my head over this past 4 months I have written so many blogs in my head about school and sensory processing disorder.
But to be honest, it is so fucking exhausting.
There is so much.
Just so much.
I know that people in my life, my son’s life, who don’t believe in sensory processing disorder. Even after seeing meltdowns, it is my lack of discipline or my allowance of annoying behaviours that creates what it is.
But it isn’t.
For a long time I wanted to believe that also, that maybe something different in the way we were with him would fix it.
But it doesn’t.
We’ve even tried diets.
We’ve tried weights.
We’ve tried so many fucking things and nothing is really helping.
The ot (occupational therapist) is fantastic to her credit. She has meetings with the school, observes, suggests, works with. His teacher is fantastic as well.
It is just heartbreaking because I know my beautiful little boy is in there underneath his quirks and weirdness.
I want to help him and it just feels so lonely.